[D-G] Re: Deleuze-guattari-driftline.org Digest, Vol 1, Issue 12

[Sylvie Ruelle]

For me it has been these past years understanding schizo-affective 
disorder (a sort of chaos in the brain),
and only recently psychiatric medications
but,
even has a child, i always had so many questions.  i saw parties would 
never have answered them
drugs would of only ruined them, ...

  and so, i clung to my questions and they led me to Deleuze, since the 
last 14 years...
I read a slow as as ever... having never read before.

The ones i knew who had an opposite sort of life, have they arrived at 
Deleuze?  i have no idea.  but, they would not stay for long. i would 
imagine.

And so, i live on the edge of a giant redwood forest, near the ocean, 
reading Deleuze with the questions, watching his movies with my 
animals.

Will i ever go back to the big violent city?  Never.




On Nov 26, 2004, at 2:18 PM, Jeremy Livingston wrote:

> I can relate, Sylvie. Don't drink, don't smoke. ("What do you do?" --
> Adam and the Ants, I think?) People are nonplussed when they learn I
> have devoted my life to celebrating, to sin, to the Dionysian, and yet
> I seem so -- moral. They can only understand chaos as total abandon,
> as gross annihilation. But that is not how it works for me. I can feel
> the pulse of life in a much more subtle rhythm; I do not need to
> destroy order because I can feel the chaos seething underneath it. My
> own exuberance finds form in the infinite depth of my love for gentler
> pleasures, gentler tastes. I enrapture myself on instinct and on
> consciousness, not on loss or dulling or in-toxic-ation. I feast on
> garlic stuffed olives and steak soup with brie and brown sauce and
> whole wheat bread with week-old butter, not pills or needles. My
> orgies (usually) take only one other participant -- at most! -- and,
> if I want, I can get drunk on water. There is more feeling of power in
> the quiet flexing of my muscles on a long walk about town, than in the
> routinized absurdity of club dancing. These are my reveries.
>
>
>> Message: 4
>> Date: Fri, 26 Nov 2004 09:45:48 -0800
>> From: Sylvie Ruelle <sylvieruelle at earthlink.net>
>> Subject: Re: [D-G] Don't explain deleuze please
>> To: deleuze-guattari-driftline.org at lists.driftline.org
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>> i remember someone saying at one time: "why is your life so boring?
>> Have you ever tried drugs?  Why don't you ever go out? (etc.)" and I
>> explained that I always was 'way out there'in myself,  I never had the
>> need for drugs, when I went out it was to look at architecture.  That,
>> by my living like this since childhood, having a 'boring' life was
>> actually not so boring to me.
>>
>> :0)
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Ms. Sylvie Ruelle
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